|"Truly I tell you, even if you have faith as small as a mustard seed you can say to this mountain, 'move from here to there' and it will move, nothing will be impossible for you." Matthew 17:20|
Lately I've been struggling with being able to see the supposed 'impossible' happen. Sharing personal things with friends that are close doesn't come very easy to me. As I watch Josh try and try and try again to share his faith, and the love of God with his friends, I'm reminded about the finite amount of time we have here on earth, and the infinite amount of time our souls have after our bodies are done. It's kind of scary to think that there's a chance that those close to you might not realize the importance of a soul. So many people are too concerned with the small amount of time that they have here on earth, and strive to make the most of it, instead of stopping and thinking about what lies beyond. C.S Lewis said, "You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body." But I think that so many of us forget that. These days I feel like it's become impossible to show those we love that there is more important things going on than living day to day, and being a 'good' person while doing it. I'm sorry friends, but none of us are good, and we never will be.
It's so hard for me to know that the words that Jesus said in Matthew 17:20 hold true today. Sometimes I feel like I come across quite a lot of stubborn mountains, and man it's really hard to get them to move. I wish that I could measure my faith, to see if it's enough. Some days I don't think that it is, and that's a harsh reality for me. I wish that it came easier. I want to help move those mountains. Until then though, I'm not going to give up. Because I know that if I continue to read the Word, my little mustard seed of faith will be able to take root, sprout, and grow into something bigger, as I grow closer to the One who created it all. Until then, I'm going to have to just keep watering and loving on that little seed, to make sure that the roots planted in me are growing strong, and in the right direction.